fuck my tender heart.

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can't sleep. it's late. maybe early. maybe both. I've been thinking a lot. that's dangerous. a lot about a lot. nothing in particular. more like scattered thoughts. like dreams with twists and turns and a good plot. like jumbled words that come out of this tied up voice box. the one that's in knots because I don't know what you want to hear. I'm ( Read more... )

i spend too much time not feeling things. then again, it gets in the way. blood brings us together, then fades in waves.

my hair is getting long, I could care less. my distressed body keeps going. my veins need a rest.

sunrise; sunset. sunrise again.

tossing and turning keep my nights busy. lack of attachment keeps me wanting her with me. if only ( Read more... )

There is a thin line between love and hate that we have all crossed. I couldn't hate you so much if I didn't love you enough. The bitter sweet kisses you slap my face with leave a taste I spit out like poison. You cold hearted beautiful temptress you, I truly despise every little thing you do- but I can't help myself. When I see you all of our ( Read more... )

every once and a while I hear your voice in the distance, fluttering softly over the winter wind. i have lost myself to sweet sips, shivering lips, and the bitter twist at the end of my drink.

you are my sunshine- as I smoke too many cigarettes. you are the good thing attached to all of my regrets.

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The heat hits like a tidal wave as I open the door for you. I sit to see shifting eyes and the sudden realization we are in lust. The drinks flow, I slip you a kiss, then I have to go. Chaos covers the rest of the bar. The ocean of people distract you as I find my way to the car. I am washed away into the night.

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I fear I am losing her.
Something has happened.
I can feel it.
She wouldn't talk to me today.
I can't sleep.
Strange thoughts swim
Like villians in horror movies
They don't run
They sneak up on you
When you thought
You made it
It tragic and you fall victim
It's bleeding.
I'm freezing.
I can't stop waiting
Like there is some light
There Is some hope
Like I will come ( Read more... )

Iiiiiiiiii am another fucking joke. I preach against drinking drunk fuck like I can shut my mouth. She loves me / lust me / suck up to me / must be my true love / fuck love lust drunk back to fuck.??? I am beyond trust and luck. Straight to dumb motherfucker! Why did you do what you did like you didn't give a fuck- I was drunk-fuck-lust-love-back ( Read more... )

Dim lighting and the smell of something wrong. She tries to tell me I'm crazy in this song, but I beat her to it. I will live through it. I am not new to this. I'm just looking for meaning, but i hope you know my name by the end of the evening. Something to learn before the drinking kicks in and you lose it. The meaning of life is to love, fuck, ( Read more... )